It is a furnace, it is in this place we face our demons. You know when you are alone, truly alone, you find out how much you can’t stand being alone. Alone with your thoughts, alone with your insecurities, alone with the realities of the parts of you inside poking their heads out to remind you that they are still there and you can’t ignore them when you are alone, just you and God. You must get around people and be busy- distracted, in order to ignore the existence of these demons.

Unpacking the sparrows and the swallows in this Bible Study of Psalm 24 and some personal background that opened my eyes to understand Motherhood.

There are fights you fight to win, and there that are fights you just fight. You fight the good fight. Do you win? Not in this age. In this age, you just keep fighting. You never win the fight against the flesh. You fight the fight against the flesh. 

This is the story of my life-long struggle with chronic depression that has been healed over the years through the power of Jesus which heals the deepest sadness and a special song that came out of facing the darkness in my soul.

There are forces of nature, and then there are forces of the supernatural. Have you ever wondered why the universe seems to favor some people above others? Or why you keep ending up going in a circle on the roller coaster of life? These questions usually lead us to be offended with nature, the universe, or God. As I began to meditate on passages regarding favor, I noticed some interesting things that I felt were not unique to me. I'm excited to share these nuggets with you, and I hope it releases some blockages you may have in your connection with God. 

When we are delivered out of this world and in heaven with Christ there will be no more tears, no more pain, no more suffering. The pains of this age will cease. The betrayals and accusations will be a thing of the past. All the things that ail us will be remembered no more. There will be no more dark days. My offering of praise when everything seems perfect and is going my way does not cost the same as the offering I give when I am so heavy burdened I can barely stand.

Do you realize that Jesus had to carefully and creatively create time alone with the Father? Look at how Jesus prioritized time alone and let's think about His example of prioritizing fellowship with the Father.

Sometimes I feel like I want to throw a fit- God! Why aren’t You answering me? Why aren’t You speaking? Can You just make this clear please? But what a humbling meditation to think that there actually may be a good reason He is being quiet… and it has nothing to do with my motivations, piety or me at all. There’s more happening than meets the eye and I must develop this ‘trust muscle’.